Currently Reading Tess of the D'Urbervilles (Penguin Classics) By Thomas Hardy see related

Wasted.

This summer was a waste. I didn't take ACC classes or have a job like anyone else. And it wasn't my fault.

I want to write a book. It would be fascinating. And definitely a bestseller. 

But I have to do my summer assignment. I hate summer assignments. Way to ruin an already shitty summer.

I should probably delete this because no one reads it but sometimes I just want to write.

That sounds emo. Whatever, who gives a fuck?

Well apparantly, BESTT is no longer a class according to Rebecca, so I need BESTT filler ideas.

Any ideas? AP European History? Um, just kidding.

I'm kind of excited for senior year and I don't know why.

I started this thing on September 28, 2003. I can't believe it has been almost 4 years since 8th grade.

I am a completely different person.

It's kind of scary sometimes, how fast people change.

At least the friends closest to me are still the same. Funny how that is.

But then again there are some of them who are like night and day.

Kind of like my family.

Everyone said "high school will be the best years of your life!"

Well, if this is true, someone shoot me now, because it usually sucks and is mediocre at best.

And then they say "college is so fun!"

Oh really, like high school was SO fun?

I simply can't wait to eat Ramen every day and worry about financing an education.

It's stupid how we spend 18 years in school learning shit we don't need to know.

Only to get out and make money doing something we probably will hate that has nothing to do with our schooling.

So we can retire when we're 65.

And be too fucking old to do anything fun.

But the alternative is even more hellish, like sweeping the floor at McDonald's, as opposed to a desk job.

So I was researching colleges the other day, and checked up on Texas A&M.

I could go in with 60 credits. And graduate when I'm 20. And then have a master's by 21 and a half.

But why? So I can change diapers anyway?

"My advice: get a sex change. Life sucks as a woman." -Mom

Never mind it kind of sucks as an anything, but more so as a woman.

You can never have it all. And I want it all.

Currently Reading A Thousand Splendid Suns By Khaled Hosseini see related

Summer!

I lied, I actually just finished that book. It made me cry. Which almost made me cry just for crying over a book. But my point is, it's really good. Read it. He's the best author ever.

Summer has been going pretty well, I'd say. I'm going to Virginia on June 16th through the 28th with my mom and sisters and Bleu. Fun! Who wants to hang out soon? I went to the movies with Rebecca and Kevin last night, and we saw Knocked Up. It was really funny. Hm, but other than that, I've just hung out with Bleu and slept a lot and been on the computer and watched TV.

Ugh, I don't even know what to write about. In eighth and ninth grade I never had this problem. My life certainly hasn't gotten less eventful, or maybe I've just gotten less enthusiastic? I don't know.

I'm thinking of getting a tan. But that never seems to work out. Whatever.

Yeah this is pointless. Just for fun, I'll put up my schedule for next year:

AP English IV
AP Biology
AP Psychology
BITS
BESTT (for Mrs. Sas)
Speech//Health
Gym//AP Human Geography
AP Macroeconomics//AP Comparative Government

Last time I have to do that. My schedule pleases me. No math, no Spanish, no Latin, and no Theater either, but I don't know if I was getting anything out of that class anymore.

God I can't wait for college. People I know who graduated said to start on application stuff this summer. I wish I just KNEW where I was going so I could concentrate on applying there, instead of sending out a bunch and getting half of them rejected and still being confused. For example, UT is a good school, and I wouldn't mind going there, but I'm sick of Austin. And every college is so flipping expensive. Gay.

But I CAN wait for my AP test scores. Because they will probably be disgraceful. Everytime I think a test is easy it kicks my butt. Which is what will happen, I suppose.

I had a good birthday, though. I'm 17 now! It was satisfying to attend an R movie without having to sneak in. There are other perks to being 17 as well, but I'll just take advantage of this one.  18 shall be better.

Okay I'm done.

Currently Reading A Farewell to Arms By Ernest Hemingway see related

Return?

Wow... I just finished reading all those comments again from my last post, which was... a year ago?! Oh my, how time flies. It will never cease to amaze me how hypocritical, stupid, and downright foolish some people are, especially those who think of themselves as the epitome of Christianity while dissing a major branch of it. Or people who attack me and then claim that I got my friends to defend me, (which did not even happen, for the record), while they do an extreme version of the same thing they are criticizing me for. Or people who demean my friends and family. Hm, pretty Christlike attitude! Or my favorite, people who accuse me of being "emo" and "boyfriend obsessed." Pot, meet kettle.

I just got fairly angry all over again, but whatever.

So I think I might come back to Xanga. I'm rather sick of MySpace, it's kind of in a slump anyway. And not as personal.

Life's going pretty well, I'm in Virginia right now for Spring Break. Latin State in two weeks! Then April (which is kind of a lame month) and then May, which will be the most busy time of my life so far. I wish I was exaggerating.

4th- Physics Trip to Six Flags!
5th- SAT (for the second time, I'd like to break 1450)
8th- Spanish and Statistics AP tests
11th- US History AP test
12th- JUNIOR PROM! I still have to get my dress... anyone want to go shopping?
16th- English AP test
18th- My 17th Birthday! & Start of exams (LAME)
21-23rd- EXAMS
23- Last Day of School!

Hm, this summer we're probably going to Disney World and then back to Virginia again. Latin Nationals in July, maybe? Braces off in July as well, finally. Senior year is totally going to be a blast, I can't wait.

So that's the rundown for my life so far. I was thinking the other day about what I might be interested in doing for a living, and I have no idea.

Then again, does anyone?

I recently decided that there's basically a lot of people who are jealous of me.

And they need to stop being bitches.

So that's that.

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Oh and another thing...

I'm sick of people making posts with shit like "oh pray for me."

There's better things to pray for, like say, all the starving people in the world.

Or our troops.

But no, some people just think that their life is the most important thing going.

Well, it's not.

Honestly, no one gives a crap if you only got like 4 hours of sleep.

Or if you're having a disagreement with a teacher.

It's not a reason to send out prayer requests.

Life goes on.

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Finally, Spring Break is here.

I leave on Monday at 5:30 for West Texas.

And I'm going to have so much fun.

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I can't really think of anything else to say.

I'm gonna go start Driver's Ed.

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Maria Christina is OUT.

Okay, my first post.

Today, I went to church and then to CCD, where we had to think up sins that were popular among teenagers. The FIRST THING that came out of the guys' mouth who was sitting across from me was "smoking weed."  Hmmm... I really am wondering what he does in his free time...      

Then, the teacher said, "What are sins you commit that can destroy relationships?" This guy at another table said, "Well, if you kill your friend that will ruin your relationship!" The teacher said, "Yes, if someone killed me I wouldn't want to be their friend." It is going to be a LONG year...